Monday, January 4, 2010

A Little About Me and H.

I figured, while I have a few minutes, I should write a little about myself. I mean, a blog about mommyhood without a post about my pregnancy and labour and all that, isn't really a blog.

I found out I was pregnant in March of 2009, at the tender age of 18. I was so confused about how I felt... I was happy, and scared, and worried, and nervous. It was a lot to feel at once. Everyone was so happy, and supportive. After a while, I was so happy. Pregnancy seemed to agree with me. Besides a few weeks of some morning sickness, everything went well. My first ultrasound at 18 weeks was perfect, and the tech was able to tell me I was definitely having a little boy, and that he was doing very well so far.

I had a few minor issues, though. At my 26 week ultrasound, the tech noticed I had a shortened cervix, which can sometimes lead to early labour, so I was put on bedrest and categorized as a high-risk pregnancy. I also had to have 3 steroid shots, over a span of 36 hours, to help develop the baby's lungs and heart and muscles in case he was born early. I had to go for ultrasounds every 2 weeks for about 8 weeks. There were no changes to anything, and since nothing else was awry, I was taken out of the high-risk category.

At every doctors appointment, my blood pressure, and the baby's heart rate, were always excellent. Towards the end, my weight gain started to drop, to the point I had lost weight at a few weighings, and my belly seemed very small, which worried my doctor... so now I had to go for something called a non-stress test. That basically means that I had 2 disks strapped around my belly... one to measure my uterine pressure, and one to measure the baby's heart rate to see if he was going into distress when I had Braxton Hicks contractions. All four of these tests I had over a 6 week span (from 34-40 weeks) had great results. And my last ultrasound I had (around a week before I was due) showed that the baby was healthy and very well developed.

Everything over the next week went well... but I had a feeling that I was going to go way past my due date. Four days before I was due, when I saw my doctor, I asked her when I could be induced, and she said I should wait until after my due date before asking about it, because I could go into labour on my own. Well, I didn't. I saw her 3 days after my due date, and my usually low blood pressure was quite high, so she said I was to be induced the next morning when she was on call at the hospital.

After waiting more than 12 hours for my induction time, I headed to the hospital for 10pm, with my sister, and my doula meeting us there. I made it with 3 minutes to spare, and was put into a delivery room right away. My water was broken at 10:30, hoping that would start my labour. It didn't, and I got my IV put in at 11. Towards midnight, I got into the tub to labour in the water instead of taking any pain meds. I stayed in the water for about 5 hours. When I got out, I was told I was 5cm (I had started at 2cm). Deciding that I couldn't handle another 6 hours of the pain, I opted to have an epidural. The anesthesiologist came in around 5:30am, and as he was leaving the doctor came in and after checking, told me I was ready to push. In 15 minutes, I had gone from 5cm to fully dilated.

After about 10 pushes in 2 minutes, my son was born at 5:41 am, weighing almost 8 pounds. It was scary and crazy and absolutely beautiful, and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

I went in expecting hours and hours and hours of labour, and hours of pushing, but I was pleasantly suprised. One thing I was not prepared for was the pain. With inductions, you go from no labour to heavy contractions in a matter of minutes. It's really intense. I was not expecting that, and I will never again ask to be induced. But me and my son made it through happy and healthy, and that's all I can ask for.

Scary New World

My son, H., is almost 6 weeks old, and already I can tell so much about him..
  • he is stubborn (I really can't imagine where he got that...)
  • he really will have the temperament of a red-head
  • he is smart
  • he is strong
  • and he is possibly the cutest baby around.

And I have the daunting job of almost single-handedly raising this little person, and caring for him, and keeping him safe, and nurturing him, for the next 20 years or so... and if he is anything like me, that won't be an easy job...

In the last 5 weeks (since we have come home from the hospital) I have done more laundry, prepared more bottles, changed more diapers, and tried (usually unsuccessfully) to cease more crying fits, than I ever thought possible before my 20th birthday. But as every new mom will tell you, there will be days where changing your socks and eating will seem like an accomplishment, and sleep is a thing of the past, but when your new baby looks into your face and smiles at you, that all seems worth it.

My goal with this blog isn't to sugar-coat parenthood, or to make it scarier than it is, but to show everyone that mommyhood has its ups and downs, and like everything in life, is all about the journey.